Don't Blink

I blinked and realized that I have walked through the rest of August, September, and October. It seems that as you grow, time goes by faster. It's a scary thought really. The past few months have been trying months. I have learned that... Well, to be honest, I don't really know what I've learned yet. I think it's still a process. God is teaching me something - I just haven't figured out the lesson as of yet. I have been trusting and having faith... I thought I saw his hand, but it turned out to be a shadow. How do you come back from that? The realization that what you thought was your Father's hand - was a shadow... I may sound bitter. I'm not. I'm just hurt. Confused. Tired. Afraid. I know that there is no fear in Christ but there is fear in this world. Maybe I'm not even making sense. Maybe the shadow is his hand... I am just thankful that through all the questions... Christ remains.