Spring's not coming yet...

So I am beginning to get a little bummed out about allllll of this snow.

Spring, where are you???

I did find these pictures though.

The majestic beauty of it seems to make it all a little better.

My Marine

Today is going to be a long day.

My mind keeps going back to my husband.

After a deployment, life eventually goes back to normal.

My husband has been home for nine months now.

I forgot so quickly the pain of him being away.

I mean, I remember at times.

I'll shudder and think how terrible it was

but that burning pain that existed

while he was away is gone.

I physically ached for his presence.

Every moment was constant worry.

Every phone call became a haven of peace.

But even then, his life was in danger.

Even in the times that we laughed and joked on the phone,

he could have been taken from

me at any second.

I don't know what I would have done if I lost him.

As it was, I fell into a deeper depression than I had ever seen.

But he did come home.

And we forgot.

It's likely that he'll leave me again someday.

We will have to endure again.

I know that our love will never change

but we will go back to lives of constant worry.

I understand though.

I understand his need and want to serve his country.

I am so proud of him.

I will support him to the very end.

And my love for him will never change.

Here are some pics of my Marine.

Mourning A Fallen Brother.

Today my husband has funeral detail.

My husband is a Marine and will go to honor a fallen brother.

The Marine who died was killed in Afganistan.

My heart breaks for his family and friends.

I cannot even begin to imagine the loss they are feeling.

I cannot imagine the lack of understanding that consumes them.

I have been fighting off the thoughts and feelings

that come with this sort of thing.

It is difficult because I don't know the next time

my Marine will deploy.

I can only be thankful that he did come home.

I can only learn to better appreciate the time that I have with him now.

Because in truth, whether at war or just at home,

you never know which breath will be your last.

All I can say is thank you, LCpl. Michael L. Freeman, for your sacrifice.

Thank you, Freeman family, for the love and support you showed your Marine.

And as always, Semper fi.

Oh Summer... Please come back to me.

So, we had a blizzard.

There is a ridiculous amount of snow outside!

It's times like there that I find myself longing for summer.

Oh please come.. days with flowers, sun, and warmth.

Please come days filled with long walks and bbqs.

sigh....

We've still got a LONG way to go!

I guess I will just have to learn to enjoy it for now.

Yesterday, my husband and I went outside and played in it for a bit.

We tried to make a snowman.

He ended up just being a little guy. :)

Here are some pictures from yesterday's snow craziness!

We're Moving On to Something New.

So we are moving on the 20th.

I think it's going to be a good move

but of course there are always worries.

Bills/Money.

What if something goes wrong.

What if we hate it.

What if we love it and can't buy in the spring.

I would be so heartbroken.

But, I have come to realize that no amount of worry can change anything.

I just have to give it up and take a step.

Here is a picture of our new home.

It's not the best picture but I will take more when I can.

We are also getting a new dog!

He is to keep me company whenever Andy has to go away.

We don't have pictures of our Scrapple

(he was prenamed but it's growing on me)

but here is a picture of what he looks like.

I am going to go enjoy this lovely snow day with my wonderful husband.

Drive safe! Stay warm!

Blogs for Life.

Some may think that February 6th is a tad late for New Year's resolutions...

but i think these resolutions are just in time.

After all - much of the year is still left to live.

1. YMCA Membership - Gotta get in shape!

2. Spanish - It just HAS to get better.

3. Completing art classes and doing more homemade crafts to help decorate my home.

4. Being a better, more loving wife to my incredible husband.

5. I really just want to be warm yellow light that pours over everyone I love. -Conor Oberst.